We have hit the third trimester! Baby Lennox is the size of an Eggplant this week. Starting to progressively put more meat on his bones and growing strong lungs. He is most active after long walks and when I lay down for bed. I can’t believe this week marks just 12 weeks until his due date! Yoga, walking and warm baths seem to be helping my hip flexor issues, i am so relieved. Experiencing acid reflux some days worse then others but nothing too unbearable thankfully.
Jameson is more and more aware of my belly each day. The other night he pulled my shirt up and pointed say “baby?”. Lennox kicked, he quickly pulled his hand away, then rubbed my belly and said “night, night baby Lennox” in his precious little toddler voice.
I won’t lie to you. I always dreamt of being a mom and just assumed I’d have at least one little girl. A little mini me, running around with long curls and bright eyes. I wanted to buy the dresses and the bows. Braid her hair and have the conversations like my mom and I did. But most of all I wanted to love on her, remind her how truly worthy she is of anything good in her life. Give her the tools to be independent and confident.
After embracing the fact that I will be a mom to all boys I’m realizing that God knew what he was doing. I will be able to instill the things I wanted in my daughter into my sons. Just will leave the shopping trips and girl talk for my granddaughter(s) because I’ll for sure be blessed with one of those right? Ha.
I really am thrilled to be have opportunity to raise three boys into men. I already feel a such a strong connection and I know that I will have such an amazing bond with each of them. They mean everything to me.
I believe each one of them will give my tender heart strength, in return I pray that they will learn from me (and their father) how to be a protector and how to value a woman’s heart. How to love. Grow into something promising. I hope they face challenges with confidence. And to always remember how proud of them I am. I want to celebrate their differences and strengths. I want them to be whoever they are supposed to be.
I see an eventful life with this sweet family of mine. Just the five of us. I also know I have a lot to learn. This will be an adventure. I will be faced with years and years of worry, creepy crawly things that disgust me and situations I just don’t understand (because, you know.. I’m a girl).
But in the end you three will be beyond worth it all. I have already gained so much by each of you, I can only imagine what the rest of my life with them will be like.
1.) the wildest of all animals. 2.) a noise with dirt on it. 3.) most precious to their mothers.