Was able to spend some time with my oldest little man this evening. We spent some time curled up in his teepee, reading books and singing songs. Just like we did every day before Kingsley arrived almost a yr ago. As we laid there he started to pat my belly, Lennox kicked back in response a few times. Jameson pulled his hand back and gave me a huge smile. It was the first time I got the feeling he understood that there truly is another baby in mama’s growing tummy.
So I thought it was a good time to show him Lennox’s crib in our room. I started to tell him this is where baby brother will be sleeping when he comes out of mama’s belly in a few weeks. While I was talking he just jumped off my bed and ran out the door, my heart sank a bit.
Just as thoughts of confusion, sadness and a little guilt rolled in; I hear his little footsteps racing back to my room. He runs in with “Baby Lauri” my first and favorite doll from when I just about his age. Making his way towards me and the crib; his little arms trying to carry her like you would a baby. He hands her to me, points to the crib and says “bye, bye baby”; Which to him translates as “night, night baby”. I placed Baby Lauri in the crib and he blows a kiss with another “bye”.
Just like that I melted, my negative feelings were wiped away and replaced with so much joy and honest pride in my son. He might not know exactly what’s going on or that their will very shortly be a real baby brother lying in the crib before him but he’s catching on. He has an idea. He is such a natural way of being loving and good natured. Reassuring me that Lennox’s arrival will be a transition for all of us, but it will be beyond rewarding.
After he went to bed I was able to spend some time reflect my feelings and what has just transpired earlier. During that time I looked through my posts from last year for #our100daysofhappy on INSTAGRAM I just can’t get over how much our lives have changed since Kingsley arrived. Jameson has been such an amazing big brother, I know Kingsley will make a great one as well. I can only imagine the love and blessings Lennox’s soul will bring our family this year. I lay my head down to rest tonight feeling so grateful.
I know that having three under three might not be everyone’s first choice. But it is what God has given us. God’s plan will always be great and more beautiful then ours will ever be. We are beyond blessed and so thankful with the sons he has given us.
Don’t forget to check back on later this week, I am hosting my first series on Kristle’s Clarity. A great group of moms will be sharing their thoughts, emotions and suggestions with preparing for a newborn. Wide range of topics, I hope you all enjoy! I am excited to read along as well.
Did you miss my NEWBORN FAVORITES post I wrote a little while ago? Some great pieces for your little bundle by some amazing shops! I’m obsessed with itty bitty baby things.