I never imagined experiencing my third (most likely final) pregnancy going quite like this.
When we first announced our pregnancy many other women commented on what a breeze it will be because I’ve done it before. Minimal worries because I’ll be so caught up chasing around my two young babes. Not sure if it was just assumptions on their part because I’ve done it twice before, but the last month… Has not been so worry free.
I thought by week 30 I’d be wrapped up in the nesting stage, organizing, cleaning and then a little more reorganizing. Spending every ounce of extra time with my boys, enjoying the sun, going on walks and trips to the park.
But that hasn’t been the case, I’ve been on and off bed rest for numerous symptoms. I’ve been feeling pretty great up until recently. After a few trips to Labor and Delivery floor the last week or so for consistent and close contractions it has become apparent my body is trying to go into labor.
my pregnancy with Lennox has been so different then the others i have experienced. i haven’t been as sick, fatigued or achy as i have in the past. however this time i have been at a higher risk for preterm labor. after a few trips to the L&D recently i have been on alert. every little twinge brings a little more wonder or worry. i have always felt confident & proud to have the chance to carry a precious life within even when the discomforts of pregnancy were not so enjoyable but this has been different. i am exhausted in a whole different way.
my love for him runs deep. having two beautiful living boys here with us makes me realize exactly what i have to lose if i overlook & something goes unnoticed.
i need to find balance & peace in the midst of this experience. i am doing my best. my body was created for this, it has provided for a strong & healthy little being for the past 33wks. there is only so much i can do to prevent something my body is doing naturally. i need to give my worries of him arriving sooner than later to The Lord. embrace every part of this wonderful responsibility i have been given, rest, stay centered & soak up whatever time we have left with just the four of us.
I posted this on Instagram // @hereyeswereolivegreen a few days ago but I need to remind myself daily, sometimes hourly when worry starts in.
As of last night baby Lennox is now further into pelvis and contractions have stayed about 5-8 minutes apart. But I have thankfully stayed at a 1cm for over a week despite the contractions and his position.
So for now I am on strict bed rest ordered to relax. Take baths, use exercise ball to stretch out my back and drink plenty of water. Stay as comfortable as possibly while laboring like this the next few weeks (we hope & pray).
My nesting in the next few weeks will look a little like this. Spending time in my bed, relaxing and snuggling with my precious boys.
I’m sharing my experience not to complain but because I know I’m not the first or only one Ina similar situation. Asked to pretty much do nothing, don’t stress and rest in a time you are anticipating such a marvelous but huge change in life. For someone who likes to stay busy, over prepare and slightly picky this is DIFFICULT.
But here I am putting my babies needs first, accepting help and doing my best to rest. Best way to look at it is to think the more I rest and take care of myself now will give me a chance to be a better mama for him in a few weeks (hopefully). Praying to make it at least to 36 weeks, 40 would be such a blessing.